Older and Wiser?

well,
it's already June.
damn,time flies by when you're having fun (or lack of)
and i'm currently counting the days to my effing birthday.
the date i was born into this world.
man i feel old.
i mean really old.
19.
that's a important number.
my upcoming final year as a teen.
what comes next?
adulthood.
the big 20.
double damn to that.
i wish i was Peter Pan or something.
that kid never grows up.
he can be quite annoying some times,
but still,
he stays as a teen.
i really can't imagine myself as a adult.
let alone a pre-adult.
i'm still like childish by nature.
but what can you do right?
sigh -___-

oh yeah,
i'm going to be 19 and i still don't have a girlfriend.
hooray!! -____-