2009 - END

This is it.
2009 is coming to the end.
So long sucka.
And hello 2010.
And i have a feeling that it's going to be a great year .

HAPPY NEW YEAR BITCHES!!!!

My Familia

i'm totally pissed off.
u guys totally disgrace my family's name.
its like it means nothing to u bastards.
well, u guys better get ready.
u mess with my family,
u mess with the worst.

if i have to,
i take all of you by myself.
i don't give a damn if i'm bloodied to the ground.
i don't give a fuck if i have to be bound in a wheelchair.
i certainly don't give a shit if i have to fight a fucking army.
i can only say one thing,
BRING IT BITCH!!!

i'll just kick your sorry asses till death.
not mess with me,my bro, and my family.
i'm warning you.
you haven't seen the real me yet.

the birds and the bees

its been a while since i updated this effing blog.
i seriously have no idea what to write.
my life is so damn boring.
there's just no such excitement.

don't let me started with my love life.
its sucks badly.
well, it's kinda my choice to stay single for now.
but the effect of being alone is starting to take its toll.

the end of 2009 is upon us.
seriously,i regret nothing for this year.
i've made some mistakes and i learned it the hard way.
i met new friends.
in plkn and college.
but i still love my old ones.
cause they are just the best to me.
i've started to embrace my new self.
which is a step up for me.

sigh -__-
i hope next year my luck will be much better than now.
cause i really need it.

killswitch

I am who i am. Say what you want. IDGAF :P

a new day, a new generation

glad to have you in our family
ariff haiqal :)

Midnight Surprise!

Before midnight i called you,
Asking you if you are home or not.
You said meet me after midnight,ok?
And I waited till the midnight comes.
I drove to your house.
With a surprise in mind.
Been seaching all night.
To make this encounter just right.
I waited for you near your house.
With my heart beating as fast as i can remember.
When you come out, I feel happy and complete.
But still.
I ask you to close your eyes.
Not spoiling the surprise.
I take you to the surprse.
And asked you to open your eyes.
A sight that i myself have planned for weeks.
A cupcake with a candle lighted.
A red rose to acompany with.
And to top it all of,
A song played that shows how i feel about you.
You we're overjoyed with the sight.
Thanking me like you never thank me before.
Said things that make me feel really special to you.
But thats wishful thinking.
With the joy and fun,
Comes with a price.
With another agenda for meeting you.
Although its still wasn't what i want.
I'm still glad i'm not losing you.
But deep inside,
I still feel like losing you day by day.
But I guess I have to deal with it.
Atleast i have this special moment in my mind forever.
With you,
anything is special to me.

Happy Birthday,A

day by day

it's hard to tell your feelings towards me now.
is it the same as always or is it becoming clearer to you?
all i know is that i still love you.
i really need you in my life right now.
i can't lose you again.
i just can't.
i won't let you go :(

AAR :)

AAR totally rocks..Tyson was such a freak..haha :P

ps - i wish i can turn back time and stayed with u the whole time that nite :(

Mayday Parade - I Swear This Time I Mean It

Oh Florida, please be still tonight
Don't disturb this love of mine
Look how she's so serene
You've gotta help me out

And count the stars to form in lines
And find the words we'll sing in time
I want to keep her dreaming
It's my one wish, I won't forget this

I'm outdated, overrated
Morning seems so far way

So I'll sing a melody
And hope to God she's listening
Sleeping softly while I sing
And I'll be your memories
Your lullaby for all the times
Hoping that my voice could get it right

If luck is on my side tonight
My clumsy tongue will make it right
And wrists that touch
It isn't much, but it's enough
To form imaginary lines
Forget your scars, we'll forget mine
The hours change so fast
Oh God, please make this last

'Cause I'm outdated, overrated
Morning seems so far way

So I'll sing a melody
And hope to God she's listening
Sleeping softly while I sing
And I'll be your memories
Your lullaby for all the times
Hoping that my voice could get it right
Could get it right

You could crush me
Please don't crush me
'Cause baby I'm a dreamer for sure
And I won't let you down
I swear this time I mean it

And I'll sing a melody
And hope to God she's listening
Sleeping softly while I sing
And I'll be your memories
Your lullaby for all the times
Hoping that my voice could get it right

dedicated to u, A

One Call Away

i made one phone call and it really made my day.

good luck whoever that i called.

thank you for keeping everything.

maybe its time to quit

it hurts seeing the girl you always love knowing that she won't love you back,A

i envy you guys

it sucks to be me

moments to share :)

This is just a few moments that really made my whole year really special.
A lot more actually happen but some are not photograph.
Thanks :)

22/09/09 - AC and a fun night

23/09/09 - Amir Hadi's Open House

25/09/09 - Raya with Friends

26/09/09 - Fasya's Open House

10/10/09(DAY) - Nabil sister's Wedding

10/10/09(NIGHT) - Asrul and Ayu's Open House

16/10/09 - Una's Potluck

17/10/09 - Farid's Open House

18/10/09 - Sabeel's Open House

19/10/09 - Fun with Fireworks

24/10/09 - Andalus

tick tock

i can't deal with the whole love thing anymore i guess. all it does is just hurt me and bring me down.
every time i tried to be close with someone, sooner or later it will crumble. every time i think that things are going in my way, things started to badly happen as to no surprise to me now. but each disappointment comes with a price. each time my body seems to weaken it self to a point that i don't really care of my surroundings. i mean seriously, my body can't handle all this negative impulse. i tried to be positive of the whole thing but what does thinking positive really done for me? NONE. ZERO. is as if lady luck is giving me the whole bitch treatment. and i'm paying for it. do you know how effing badly it hurts when i see all my friends happily with their beloved ones? it effing hurts dude. i'm not saying that i'm not happy for them. in fact, i'm happy for each and every one of my friends who already found their perfect someone. i just wish i can be happy for myself for having that perfect someone. i'm sick of being the middle one of my friends relationship. i'm just sick of being alone. but who cares rite? i'm only the guy-friend for each of the girls i know. they just think of me that way. never more. i was once told i was the perfect guy. do you know how sucks it is for a guy knowing that a girl says to you that you're the perfect guy but still you're not even close to be with her? it effing sucks man. i failed so bad at love, i just feel like its a way of life for me. as everyday i have to fail in love just to go on with my day. even my lazy ass brother has a girlfriend. and he rarely goes out of the house. man, i totally sux. if theres a olympic sport for failing in love, well you're looking at the gold medalist right here. i don't want to find myself in a mental breakdown. i almost had one this year. i just wish things go correctly this time. no more screw up. no more bad things. no more bad luck. just give me a chance. as you can see, i'm different. i really do want to find my true love. but its a damn long shot.

life of a no life

what would you get when a few friends get together and have some fun?
well,some fucking awesome fun :)



no life - 1

no life - 2

no life - 3

no life - 4

Melaka

i think Melaka is the best state in this country..u get my drift?

the city is at war

are those feelings really coming back to me? damn..i cant believe it.. -_____-

the truth

no matter what, i will always love you :)
you know who you are...

Jerishow

1 Paper Left = Awesome

missing someone -____-

LYN<3

I MISS THIS :(

LUCK

luck for love - none

I.D.G.A.F.

I'M NO SECOND WHEEL

I AM WHAT I AM

A Knock To The Head

am i really unlucky with love? i keep on asking myself the same question every single time.
the whole thing with me and azraa is just a memory to me now.
and now i'm still finding the right one. but who is it?
maybe its just not the right time for me but when you are alone and seeing all your friends with their loved ones, it might be a little hard for me.
i thought i might found someone in college but i guess its just wishful thinking.
i gave my close friend in college a chance to be happy with someone.
there is no reason to fight over a girl.
i really thought a found the right one but problems start to piled up.
and now when things starting to go my way, things started to happened that made me cringed.

for now, i just want to stay the way i am..SINGLE..and basically NOT AVAILABLE.

i'm currently waiting to see what will happen between me and someone, so wish me luck :)

a day of familiar faces

today was a memorable day. i finally get to see my old friends again. it's been ages since i last saw them. it was really great.

my house was their target for beraya. and i thank all of them for coming. its kinda easy to get to my house since everybody can drive now :)

thia,syad,aizie,nisa,lyn,afdhal,amir,azraa,me,dylla,zack,afiq

miss this girl so so much. glad to see her. love ya LYN <3

finally got to see her for all this while. AYU a.k.a. MUFFIN :P

a lot of memories with her. my first love<3 thank you AZRAA :)

rinse and repeat

say whatever you like, its not going to happen..so stop living in denial..and just accept it..

Dream

All the cherish moments, all the words she said, all the time we spent together are just one whole dream that never happened in the first place.

thanks J or should i say stranger -_-

SIGH!!!! -_-

this week is going to be hectic...assignments to submit...orientation day...and final exam is just around the fucking corner..can my life be any harder than this?

:)

we're at peace now :)

The past comes to haunt me -_-

i guess the 5 years roller coaster ride i had with A is finally getting to me..i now feel so confuse and blank when it comes to finding the right one..i myself wonder if i can overcome this weakness of mine..i guess only god knows my faith.. -_-

PS - i'm still feeling nervous

Hello :)

well i've been gone for awhile now..got a lot of things to settle..can't live in the past..gotta think towards the future

i don't know why i'm nervous and scared to talked to her..

warrior poet

my 3rd paper,literature totally sucks monkey ball...i was not prepared at all..well maybe just a little..haha ;p i just do want i can remember,which was not a lot..hope i do well..haish

then i feel like going out..so i ask fatin,who ask wok if i can join in to study..she said yes,so i drove to MSU to meet them..then the fun began..i'll write it later because i'm so fucking tired...hahaha ;p

HERE I COME!!!!

Come August 15th, 2009 – MTV World Stage will make its debut in Malaysia; an unprecedented 1st in Asia! Kick-starting MTV’s Global circuit of specially produced music events!

The Line Up

BOYS LIKE GIRLS
THE ALL-AMERICAN REJECTS
KASABIAN
ESTRANGED
RAYGUN
PIXIE LOTT

I have to be fucking crazy if i'm going to miss this event. Oh wait, I've got the fucking tickets already..hahaha ;p
I'm going alone i guess -_-

the good and the bad

my 2nd mid sem paper was for Islamic Studies...damn...i'm not really good with memorizing stuff...thank god i manage to answer some of the question...the rest,well let's pray to god that all of those are right...hahaha ;p

then we met up with the one and only miss seri..we talk for a while and decided to go and eat at KFC with her..we had a blast talking to her...because all of the stuff we talk about are confidential, i have to keep my mouth shut about this...damn it...well,i guess i'll be her target again...after that we went back home..

btw thx mum :)

my first mid sem paper

it was for English Language Awareness..it was not too hard or too easy..it was ok..Miss Seri is targeting me for this one...haish...why me miss?why? hahaha ;p

its going to be one rough week

my 1st mid term exam this week..kinda nervous..but i hope i'll do well :)

get to see her :P

Quote of the Week

totally made my day :)

30/07/09 9:03 pm

a message to be worried about maybe

push to strong

relax dude..u got all the time in the world..just take it one step at a time..chill out..no need to rush

nite time :)

i dunno why but i feel really happy tonight.. :)

class is in session

im in IT class rite nw...too lazy to go for Thursday IT class...too pack...although i wont see a certain someone,we all have to make sacrifice once in a while rite? DAMN IT!!!! hahahahaha ;p

i say..

a crush maybe? i dunno ;p

memory of a child within

brings back so much fun memories :)

i got something and it goes something like this

Is it wrong to be friends with others than the ones i always hang out with?? hurm...thats a tough one...it's simply a mystery...NOT!!!

that made my day - after a long and i mean long commenting on myspace,i finally got jiher's number,which btw she laugh so hard when i asked her for it..LOL..hahaha ;p

comedy??me??

i can't believe mdm izlin ask me and aiman to enter the duet acting comedy next wednesday...
comedy and me don't actually add up...if we go through this acting thing,i know that i will probably fuck things up...seriously..hahaha ;p

will i?

will i have enough courage to just chat with her normally?
will i be man enough just to walk to her?
will i even look at her?

well, we'll have to see :)

homecoming..i guess

On 18/07/09, me and my tesl companions did community work at my old primary school...had a fun time..after that we had lunch at KFC..jiher ate 4 pieces of chicken..LOL :)

its good to be back at the main place i got my education :)

college life..

well..im in college(YAY!!)..im taking TESL..so i guess i'll be a english teacher(imagine me as a teacher..haha ;p)..my classmates are totally fun..i 1st hang with joe,aiman,naufal,nas,apit,bia,christina,ainur,kak shu and lynn...then i started being friends with wok,amirul,afiq,amir,jiha,jiher,lea,fatin and so much more..thank god i got them as my classmates..the classes are great..some are boring but still enjoyable..i guess..haha ;p

i really enjoy this life..for now..i hope i dont screw up this one..i totally focus on my studies...kinda.. :) not that girl anymore...still finding the right one though...i hope i found her soon...

currently listening to : Surrender To the Dance Floor - Just Dance(Lady Gaga cover)

are u serious?

are u serious?are u kidding me?u must be fucking kidding me...i tore my heart for u for 5 years and not even once u give me a fucking chance...but for that bastard u give him another shot? after all that we've been through..WTF????after our emotional night,u still wont give me a chance..u avoided me..acted like it never happen..but it did..i was literally heart broken because u ignored everything that we said that night..u knw what..u've been avoiding me the whole time..u never sms me back...u comment only once and a while..that sux ass man...i wanted to try to be closer to u but u keep on avoiding it...but with other guys u dont mind...fuck that man...seriously this is jus fucked up...u never even appreciate what i did for u this past 5 years..i bet u cant tell me even one thing i did for u...u probably forgot your bday night..u probably forgot the gifts i gave u for 4 straight years..i bet its in a dumpster somewhere..even the most memorable gift of all, a necklace i saved for my one true love and i gave it to u, where is it nw huh? under your bed or jus in the trash?

u see..i gave my whole life for u but all u do is jus shit all over it...im still wandering if it was a mistake ever falling in love with u..

Finally, Its Here

no,im not talking about my SPM result(which of course sucks).im talking about DRAGONBALL EVOLUTION!!!!!!!

i just saw the movie and i got to say,it was better than i expected..the action was great and the comedy in it was kinda good actually..it shows a little bit of the original dragonball..although, i was kinda frustrated because its an hour and a half,so the story was kinda rush..the epic battle between goku and piccolo was incredible..the special effects was awesome..the acting is a little cheesy bt hey,it is dragonball rite?they might change a lot of things in this movie,bt they somehow manage to put in a little stuffs that many of u guys thought they pull out..here are some stuffs from the movie

-master roshi is a god damn pervert
-sifu norris talked about the 'OTHERSIDE' and master roshi saw gohan when he died
-yamcha,so dead on
-yamcha getting his ass burned
-the training with the orange was hilarious(u got to see it)
-oozaru(although it was for 2 minutes i think)
-the ending of the epic battle when goku flew to piccolo while doing the kame hame ha.Similar to the battle in the original dragonball but goku didnt punch through piccolo but he just kame hame ha that green bad ass away.
-the teasing between goku and chi chi.(its funny as hell)

im giving this movie a 4/5 cause im a fan of the franchise and i got to say this is great movie.Some may not like the movie but i dont care.As long as i like it,i doesnt matter. It might be confusing with the whole piccolo and oozaru working together(wtf?) but if there is a sequel, i know that they will explain it more clearly and have the movie a little longer(2 hours perhaps?)

spoiler - cute soup girl nursing the defeated :)

my perfect girl(kinda)

Hayley Williams <3
why cant someone be as perfect as u?

2 days

2morrow im going back to my grandparents house..i'll be there for 2 days i think..i know afiq will miss me..the rest of u guys?50/50..haha ;p this will be my chance to relax a bit in the peaceful country side..mayb mandi sungai perhaps?nah,im actually busy with a kenduri my grandparents are having..bt still,i really need to get away from this city to freshen up my clouded mind..its all messed up inside there..n when i come back, i hav a lot of things to handle..well, c ya later!!!

ps - im not putting to much hope on the 'ONE' thing in my mind :)

u guys seriously need this...

3 words, 'HUG IT OUT'

crush no more?

it seems my latest crush is a no go..oh well,this proves that my love life really do sux..cant wait for the nx one..yay!!!(being sarcastic) :)

miserable at best

with all the stuff that keeps happening to me,i suddenly feel really happy..i cant tell the reason rite nw cuz i might ruin that happiness..all i can say is i hope things get better for me in the future..

to a certain someone with her name starts with R,i never said that i hate u..ur the one who thinks i hate u but i dont..u always be my friend :)

GAYS

lost

nw im a little confuse with my life..i hav no idea where im going or wut to do..i always thought after school life,i was going to hav this cool life like jus sleepin,hanging out with my fwenz,n well finding the perfect someone..well i was wrong...my life rite nw is boring as hell..it makes me miss the good old school days..haish..i hav no plans for my future at all..im simply lost in this big planet call earth..

currently listening : Lady Gaga - Poker Face(im addicted to this song rite nw)

Dragonball : Evolution...can't wait :)

simply can't wait ouh :)

seriously miss her :(

she is beautiful,smart,caring,friendly and so on(she's jus to great)..and she happens to be my bestie and i really miss her ouh :( ...we only see each other once after new year celeb we had..with her working now and im jus laying my ass off on the couch,we barely even contact each other..i really hope we can hang out like old times..i truly syg u and i miss ur smile :(
Lyn<3

all in my head

i like this girl bt afraid to make a move..mayb bcuz shes my friend and im afraid if i tell her,it will ruin our friendship..look what happen the last time..i almost lost a very good friend..although we dont talk much nw,bt im still glad that we're still friends..haish..i really do like this girl n mayb some other time i will tell her,bt for nw im kinda not ready yet..

Finally....

01/02/09
Finally,after a long time asking Afiq to buy a wallet,he finally does..

Girls That Rock

Hayley Williams from Paramore (wish i hav a gf like her)

Meg & Dia (im totally in love with Dia<3)

Cassadee Pope from Hey Monday

a new year, a new crush??

31/12/08 - 01/01/09
One of the best nites of my life

its the 2009 and i've move on from my 5 years of waiting..it feels really good..bt nw im wandering if i can hav the same feelings that i hav with the one that got away with another girl..everynite i think about and it really bothers me..to tell u the truth,im jealous with my friends..they are so lucky to hav gf or bf thats loves them so much..i really want to feel wuts is like to hav someone that that loves u,cares for u n b there for u...bt wut to do rite?im jus a loser trying to live my boring life..on the bright side,i sorta hav a crush(i think) with this girl..n another..n another..i think its a phase that im going through rite now..bt i kinda like this one girl..shes really nice and friendly..b b4 anyone get the wrong idea,it is not LYN..lyn is jus my greatest bestie in the world n i love her so much...well,we'll see wut happen between me and that girl..i hope lady luck smiles at me this time rather than the last 5 years..haha :)

currently listening to : meg & dia - roses

smoke free

its been 1 month(i think) since my last smoke, and im proud of it :)

Hey Monday - Candles

The power lines went out
And I am all alone
But I don’t really care at all
Not answering my phone
All the games you played
The promises you made
Couldn’t finish what you started
Only darkness still remains

Lost sight
Couldn’t see
When it was you and me

Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I’m beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I’ll be alright

Been black and blue before
There’s no need to explain
I am not the jaded kind
Playback’s such a waste
You’re invisible
Invisible to me
My wish is coming true
Erase the memory of your face

Lost sight
Couldn’t see
When it was you and me

Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I’m beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I’ll be alright

One day
You will wake up
With nothing but “you’re sorrys”
And someday
You will get back
Everything you gave me

Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I’m beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I’ll be alright

<3